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Thanks for that mate,when the time is right for him, if its ok with you,I'm sure he'd love it.We're in the "sticks" just outside Whitchurch.Sure we've seen your blue monster in Overton ages ago (used to go to the play area with the kids). Like you said, he just needs us to stay strong for him.Will all be doing our best as I'm pretty sure it will get worse before it gets better. Be in touch when the time is right mate. All the best.

There are no words that would do justice in thanking you all for your kindness and generosity towards Harry and all your supporting messages. Would it be possible to have the usernames along side the names above, as I promise I will thank you all individually as it's the least you all deserve and something I want to do. I promise your kindness will never be forgotten. All the best,John.

Thankyou Darrell & Karen + Everyone on here. Hope you don't mind us still using a pic of your car when we owned it,as the signature pic.Harry and me loved that motor and it was an extremely sad day for both of us when selling her. Update on Harry: Had Harry up since 2:15am in real pain in his lower back,especially in the 2 areas they took bone marrow from.Rang hospital who advised giving him paracetamol suspension. Took him in first thing ,he was eventually seen by Dr and then had bloods took.Told that bloods have now dropped really low from chemo as expected and this causing pain.We now need to keep a close eye on his temperature.Given prescription of Ibuprofen Suspession for pain relief then back home. Must admit this is just the beginning but it was pitiful to see him struggling with the pain as he's not one to complain.He's also hating the weight he's put on his belly as he say's it feel's like it's stretching his skin. I had thought Harry was starting another week of chemo Thursday (Shows how I'm listening but not receiving "heads just mashed") It is actually a 4hr session on Thursday (his 15th and final day of this block of chemo) he will then have 2 weeks off and then start all over again for his second block. Will keep you posted. Look after yourselves.

Hi As you know I posted last night and was hoping Harry wouldn't have to go back to hospital till next Thursday but unfortunately he developed ulcer's all in his mouth. Apparently this is due to the chemo so they precribed him a spray and also a mouthwash as it may become very painfull to eat and even drink. He's not had a very good night, tonight ,he was very weak,aching all over and saying his legs feel so heavy to walk + hasn't eaten the same.Hoping he'll have a good sleep tonight and feel better tomorrow. Thankyou for all the added messages (as usual,there, all really helping). For now I know I'm only thanking you all on a whole, but when hopefully things settle down,I hope to sit down and thankyou all individually,because each and every one of you deserve it for your help and support your giving. I'll keep you all posted. Wish you all a good weekend.

Hi All, Just a quick update.Harry's Dr has said he's very pleased with how the chemo has reduced the size of the lump in Harry's neck.He went to clinic today and now won't go back until next Thursday when he will have another 4hr chemo session to start another block of treatment.In the meantime he has to continue taking his steroids (eating all the time,thank God)The one side effect we don't mind as he needed to gain weight and weighing today he'd gained 1kg.Apparently from now will be when he's most vulnerable to infection and everything else so we have been issued with antibiotics he must take Saturday and Sunday as a preventative measure against some of the more severe infections. His bed is in our bedroom so we can keep our eye on him,we've told him to wake us anytime.Felt so proud and sorry for him this morning, he said "Tell you what Dad I felt ever so sick at 11 minutes past 3 but you and Mum looked so peacefull I didn't want to wake you,I just went to the bathroom for 5 minutes then back to bed,thought of some songs I like and went back to sleep." Don't kids amaze you with how they are. He's still understandably very depressed and tearfull many times each day but on the whole I think he's coping fantastic and so proud of him.Hoping now that he doesn't get an infection. Anyway I'll keep you all informed how Harry's going on and a Big Thankyou from us all for all your support. Look after yourselves.

Hi Alan, On the surface mate,we probably look to be coping well but behind closed doors and when on our own we have to let go,you just feel like your crumbling inside,we're feeling so many different things,frightened,worried,angry, upset and the list goes on.It is starting to make Sarah feel physically unwell now.I know I'll never take the worry away but I hope she will listen when I tell her to rest. Like you said mate,this is no ordinary club and believe me I couldn't put a price on what it has meant and how much its helped me to be able to post on here and get all your messages (everyone has helped so much). You might be hundreds of miles away,but getting your message and offer of help means so much and that goes for everbody on here. Its so good just knowing your all there. You ,Fiona and Laura look after yourselves.

Really sorry you didn't get message in time.So sorry your Mum's having to have chemo (lifes so damn cruel).Send your Mum our best mate and you and yours look after yourselves.Our heads are just all over the place at the moment,everything taking it's toll.Harry is eating really well due to steroids but his emotions are up and down.Sarah is not feeling too well,feeling sick and drained,hurts a lot as Harry is snapping one minute then in floods of tears the next.When we hopefully get on top of things and coping better I'll pm you. Take care mate .

Hope you get this before Sunday Graeme as I'm no longer where you came for the seats. Would have most likely been out most of day anyway as Harry having chemo again, then dropping in on his Grandad. Cheers for your messages and support mate.

Thanks for that and the same apply's back from me too ! (not as I'd be much use to anyone at the moment, "but hopefully in the future")

Hi A special thankyou to you all and update on Harry in Non Z Related section. All the very best,John.

Hi All, Just a quick update.Firstly,GOOD NEWS is ,the bone marrow they took while Harry was in theatre having his central line fitted came back clear.(Thank God, 1 less thing to worry about) Harry had his first session of chemo yesterday (4hrs) and then steroids (tablets which he's struggling with) + anti sickness + others to prevent acid etc caused by the steroids. Today another session of chemo (2hrs) then the same tablets as yesterday .He will now do this each day until Tuesday.This is very heartbreaking and the nurses have said this is relatively easy to what it will be like.If this is the easy part,its going to take some digging deep for strength when it gets worse.Had him in tears many times tonight as you'd expect ,frightened , low,can't cope with all he's having done,knows he'll get to feel worse and lose his hair.What can I say to him,I'm his Dad the one whose always strong,who never cry's (not to his knowledge anyway)who always makes things alright and makes him feel secure. I'd have to lie to him to say things won't get worse and I can't do that.To not be able to make your child feel how you have always been able to, is the worst feeling ever and I wouldn't wish it on anyone.Really dreading the coming weeks for him. I'd like to say a very special Thankyou to Athene for starting a collection for Harry.I am old fashioned (try to be proud & deal with my own problems without bothering others)but when Athene asked my permission to do this ,I could not say no,as my not accepting would have deprived Harry of all your kindness and generosity and that would have been so unfair of me as he deserves all the acts of kindness he can get. I want to say the biggest thankyou I can for all the contributions as I know money is very tight for most people,so for you to do this for Harry is very special and will never be forgotten. I will post as and when I can.I'd love to reply to all of you idividually as all your messages deserve it,but for now with limited time I'll just say Your All Stars and your support is greatly appreciated. You all look after yourselves,John

Just want to say Thankyou to you all for being there. Your all brilliant,I fight back the tears every time I read them, but they help so much. I know someones going to write that I don't need to keep thanking you all,but please let me,as I want to and it's the only way to show my gratitude.(Believe me I feel helpless enough as it is). I'll keep you all posted. You all look after yourselves. John.

Hi All, Sorry I havn't sent update sooner.Week last Monday was the first time I'd been on my own since hearing about Harry and he wanted to go to school as normal so I let him go.Thought I'd got it all together but I rang his school to inform them and I just couldn't get my words out.Eventually told them what needed to be said ,put the phone down and I sobbed my heart out.I think I'd kept it in that long it just flooded out, thankfully not in front of him.Since that Monday he has been off. Last Wednesday he went to Birmingham where they did an echo of his heart.He then had to drink a liquid contrast over 90 mins ready for a MRI scan.When he went for the scan poor little lad was so worked up and then they traumatised him even more by inserting the canula for the dye without using the cream to numb him.It broke our hearts as a tear ran down his cheek from the pain of them inserting it. Friday another 50 miles down to Birmingam.Arrived at 9.20 and spoke with consultant.We were told it was in the neck area but was also showing between his heart and lungs.They said they wanted a further P E T scan before starting treatment. Harry had not had anything to eat since 6:00am and he didn't go to theatre till 4:15pm.Words can't describe how upsetting it was watching him worry all this time.He had a central line positioned in his chest into his artery and then coming out lower down on his right where the 2 tubes will be used for chemo.While he was in theatre they also took bone marrow from 2 areas in his lower back for testing.Sarah and me were so proud of how brave he was,inside we were crumbling,thankfully Sarah's Dad was there as I had enough composing myself. We left that night around 8:15pm. Its been another emotional weekend as is every day. He has to be so carefull ,not to pull or knock the tubes coming from his chest (so bad for him relaxing,moving or even sleeping).He's just so low with everything. Its now Tuesday night and we've had no new's after ringing to chase the P E T scan (Apparently machine fully booked) so unless phone call tomorrow,Harry will start his chemo Thursday without the scan.We feel so ill and upset and we're not having to go through what Harry is .He's devastated about the thought of his hair going and everything.We love him so much and feel so helpless. I wouldn't wish this on anyone.Believe me its made me realise how precious even just having normality in your life is. "A Big Thankyou" for you all being there and I'll keep you posted. You all take care,John.

No words could express how thankfull we are for all your kind words and thought's.You have all confirmed what I already thought "Your the most fantastic bunch of people and I feel really priviledged to be part of this club." The consultant is trying to rush things through as quickly as possible (should know more Monday)At the moment Harry is due to go Wednesday to Birmingham's Childrens Hospital where he will have dye injected and his first scan. I will keep you posted as and when I can.Your so right in what many of you have said "That it helps to have somewhere to pour your heart out." All of you and this site are a God send. Believe me I'm fighting every minute to be strong for Harry,he needs this and deserves it.I'm so glad that when I was reading all your kind words he was not beside me as I couldn't help but release a tear, as I am also doing writing this, due to a combination of heartache and being overwhelmed by all your kindness. You may not know me but I live my life by "treating people as they treat me". So knowing this ,I hope that you'll all feel that in the future ,should any of you need help or support as you have offered me,that I will be here for you if I can help in any way. I wish I could reply back to you all individually,but as I'm not too quick with the keyboard this message is to you all. Genuinely can't thankyou all enough,you've really helped (more than you could ever imagine). Will keep you informed. All the very best to you all,John.

I'm writing this as everyone has gone to bed and I just don't know where to put myself. Last week my son Harry (my little champ) went for an op to do a biopsy on his neck,today we got the worst news ever,he has cancer.He's 9 and a half and everything to us as children are to their parents.Finding it so hard, as like most kids they believe Dad doesn't cry.I havn't in front of him as if he see's any weakness in me he'll know there's something sadly wrong.His Mum and me feel like our insides have been ripped out. I know I shouldn't probably be writing this here but I hope you understand my frame of mind,I just feel so helpless.Its only just over a year ago I lost my Mum with cancer.Harry idolised her and saw what she went through to a certain extent. So he is having to cope with a hell of a lot for his age.(I know there are thousands like him but you just feel your the only ones) I'm like everyone else I'd moan about the slightest little thing going wrong,but boy does this put things into perspective for me.(nothing else seems important now). Sorry for writing here but your all a great bunch and Harry loves his Z's as much as me and I just want to send the message"Appreciate life when its good and all is well." Its surprising how we take the little things for granted and believe me I'm the first to put my hand up for being guilty of that. All the best .

Cheers,I'll do it now.Be nice to be back on board fully. All the best.

Hi, As you'll know I was subscribed but some time as passed and just wondered do I pay £15 or £20. Thanks,REDZED.

Nice one mate.It can be pretty hard going for kids nowadays,but what you've just done can make all the difference.My lads 9 and he's had some rough times this last year along with his Mum, sister and me.Lost his Nan (my Mum) in January,moved house and school .He went really inward after losing his Nan and got bullied,a few bigger ones surrounded him and he couldn't see a way out so picked some scissors up to make them back off.Obviously I was phoned to pick him up straight away.How things are today with stabbings etc I know it was serious,but if I'm honest put in the same situation I'd have done the same.Due to everything going really bad the Z has been garaged for 6 months (finances,also reason for not being subscribed anymore). BUT fair do's the one thing that puts the biggest smile on his face is our Z ,strike it up and pull it out of the garage he beams, No Money Can Buy That ! I commend you and any other person that carries out such nice acts to make others feel better.At the end of the day my Z's have always made me and them around me happy. All the best mate.

Think you just need a really nice set of wheels on, to do the car justice.I think you'd be surprised how much the wheels are hampering the car looking mint.Some nice deep dish alloys and you'll be the envy of all the lady's out there.

Got mine this morning Steve ,thanks.Well worth the wait,felt like a kid with a goody bag ! Cheers John.

Yep! I saw the grey zed .Lovely motor,asked a few people nearby if they knew where the owner was but no joy.The reg started ROB if that was the same one (only 1 I saw unfortunately.) Bring back the zeds is all I can say to steer from the rear.

Sent details 20th June by pm ,should my pack have arrived by now ? Cheers John.

Cheers for the comments Gary.Sorry I havn't responded ealier I've been offline since 28th September thanks to WANADOO or should I say WANAPOO.Yep it was a very sad day for me and my son as you know (its left a big gap even now we miss it like hell).The one consolation was that it went to a cracking bloke, that left no doubt in my mind that he would treat the motor well.Hope everythings going ok ,look forward to some photos on here. SORRY BUT I JUST HAV'NT HAD TIME TO TAKE PHOTO OF YOUR MOTOR FROM UNDER MY MESSAGES. All The Best John.

Hi mate,I think the front bumper was an Abflug.

Send us your e-mail address & I'll forward some pic's.Cheers John.