I'm writing this as everyone has gone to bed and

I just don't know where to put myself.

Last week my son Harry (my little champ) went

for an op to do a biopsy on his neck,today we

got the worst news ever,he has cancer.He's 9

and a half and everything to us as children are

to their parents.Finding it so hard, as like most

kids they believe Dad doesn't cry.I havn't in front

of him as if he see's any weakness in me he'll

know there's something sadly wrong.His Mum and

me feel like our insides have been ripped out.

I know I shouldn't probably be writing this here

but I hope you understand my frame of mind,I

just feel so helpless.Its only just over a year ago

I lost my Mum with cancer.Harry idolised her and

saw what she went through to a certain extent.

So he is having to cope with a hell of a lot for his

age.(I know there are thousands like him but you

just feel your the only ones)

 

I'm like everyone else I'd moan about the slightest

little thing going wrong,but boy does this put things

into perspective for me.(nothing else seems important

now).

 

Sorry for writing here but your all a great bunch and

Harry loves his Z's as much as me and I just want to

send the message"Appreciate life when its good and

all is well."

Its surprising how we take the little things for granted

and believe me I'm the first to put my hand up for

being guilty of that.

 

All the best .

As said before, please keep us updated on the wee mans progress, and our thoughts are with you and your family.

 

Alan & Family..............

As said before, please keep us updated on the wee mans progress, and our thoughts are with you and your family.

 

Alan & Family..............

 

Hi All,

Sorry I havn't sent update sooner.Week last Monday

was the first time I'd been on my own since hearing

about Harry and he wanted to go to school as normal

so I let him go.Thought I'd got it all together but

I rang his school to inform them and I just couldn't

get my words out.Eventually told them what needed

to be said ,put the phone down and I sobbed my heart

out.I think I'd kept it in that long it just flooded out,

thankfully not in front of him.Since that Monday he has

been off.

Last Wednesday he went to Birmingham where they did

an echo of his heart.He then had to drink a liquid contrast

over 90 mins ready for a MRI scan.When he went for the

scan poor little lad was so worked up and then they

traumatised him even more by inserting the canula for

the dye without using the cream to numb him.It broke

our hearts as a tear ran down his cheek from the pain

of them inserting it.

Friday another 50 miles down to Birmingam.Arrived at

9.20 and spoke with consultant.We were told it was

in the neck area but was also showing between his

heart and lungs.They said they wanted a further P E T

scan before starting treatment.

Harry had not had anything to eat since 6:00am and

he didn't go to theatre till 4:15pm.Words can't describe

how upsetting it was watching him worry all this time.He

had a central line positioned in his chest into his artery

and then coming out lower down on his right where the

2 tubes will be used for chemo.While he was in theatre

they also took bone marrow from 2 areas in his lower

back for testing.Sarah and me were so proud of how

brave he was,inside we were crumbling,thankfully Sarah's

Dad was there as I had enough composing myself.

We left that night around 8:15pm.

Its been another emotional weekend as is every day.

He has to be so carefull ,not to pull or knock the tubes

coming from his chest (so bad for him relaxing,moving

or even sleeping).He's just so low with everything.

Its now Tuesday night and we've had no new's after ringing

to chase the P E T scan (Apparently machine fully booked)

so unless phone call tomorrow,Harry will start his chemo

Thursday without the scan.We feel so ill and upset and

we're not having to go through what Harry is .He's devastated

about the thought of his hair going and everything.We

love him so much and feel so helpless.

I wouldn't wish this on anyone.Believe me its made me realise

how precious even just having normality in your life is.

 

"A Big Thankyou" for you all being there and I'll keep you posted.

 

You all take care,John.

I don't know what to say john, reading that made me put myself in your shoes and think if it was my son i'm not sure if i could cope, your being stronger than i think i would be and i congratulate you for it, i actualy have a tear in my eye as i write this.

Take care john and look after the little man and your wife, all the best, Chris, Andrea and Bradley (he's our son).

Thinking of you all mate, and as a father my self i really do feel your pain and im pretty choked up reading this thread, as hard as it is try and stay positive treatment for this has come a long way in the past 20yrs, my Girlfriends mum is in recovery after a long period of different treatments and its frustrating to see what people have to go through, but as i said before as hard as it is Try and stay positive , i no nobody on here knows me but if you need to talk always feel free to email me waynedal24@hotmail.com

 

wishing you all the best of luck ..wayne

John , that`s a very moving account of what`s happening . It must have taken a big effort just to get through typing it . My heart goes out to all of you , especially Harry of course . Maybe you could tell him all his mates on here are behind him , if it would mean anything to him .

Again , I wish you strength , good luck and best wishes .

 

Brian

John as a parent of 2 kids I really don't know what to say to you. :(

 

Words fail me.

 

All I can say is, Wendy and myself are wishing all the very best for your little lad Harry.

 

 

God bless him.

 

 

Robert.

This thread has been heartbreaking for me to read.

im not very good at these kinda things.

but i hope all goes well and im sure it will.

Take care mate, my feelings are with your family.

Hi John

 

Harry sounds like a mighty fine young man you have there, so brave for one so young. Robert, the children and I wish you so much love and luck with what you all have to go thru right now. But plz plz give Harry a huge hug for me..........and John another hug for you and your wife. Even tho none of us are near, we are all here for you, if you want to rant or scream or just talk, do so here......... we will all listen. I know things are going to be really hard for a while, but all of us are wanting the very best for him and for you and your family. I for one will be keeping my fingers crossed.

 

Lots of love Wendy Rob and children XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

just read this and my thoughts are with you and your family , I cant imagine your heartbreak and look forward to the all clear post

Just want to say Thankyou to you all for being there.

Your all brilliant,I fight back the tears every time I read them,

but they help so much.

I know someones going to write that I don't need to keep

thanking you all,but please let me,as I want to and it's the only

way to show my gratitude.(Believe me I feel helpless enough as it is).

I'll keep you all posted.

 

You all look after yourselves.

John.

Christ dude I'm so sorry to hear you news. I cant begin to imagine what you and your family must be going through. If there is anything I or the club as a whole can do you just say and we'll do our best to make it happen.

Nick

 

 

I second that mate. Anything we can do, just ask. Routing for the little tike.

Just seen this thread, so sorry to hear this. Really does put

things into perspective when something like this happens. All the

fast cars, bikes etc are just irrelevant.

I have 2 daughters and a granddaughter, and i can't even begin to

realise what you are going through, i really really really hope your

little man makes a full recovery and can full and normal life.

What a brave little lad, John you hang in there buddy and keep us updated.

Thinking of you and your family, best wishes GLENN

http://www.300zx.co.uk/forums/showthread.php?t=107800

my thought are with you and little harry

my deepest thoughts and well wishings go to Harry, yourself, your wife and all of your family John... i cant even begin to imagine what Harry must be going through, let alone every1 around him that love and care for him.. theres nothing i can say that hasnt already been said, i take my hat off to you John for being so brave in the situation and being strong for harry... keep yourself fighting fit as im sure harry really needs you right now...

Hi All,

Just a quick update.Firstly,GOOD NEWS is ,the bone marrow

they took while Harry was in theatre having his central line

fitted came back clear.(Thank God, 1 less thing to worry about)

Harry had his first session of chemo yesterday (4hrs) and then

steroids (tablets which he's struggling with) + anti sickness +

others to prevent acid etc caused by the steroids.

Today another session of chemo (2hrs) then the same tablets

as yesterday .He will now do this each day until Tuesday.This

is very heartbreaking and the nurses have said this is relatively

easy to what it will be like.If this is the easy part,its going to

take some digging deep for strength when it gets worse.Had

him in tears many times tonight as you'd expect ,frightened ,

low,can't cope with all he's having done,knows he'll get to feel

worse and lose his hair.What can I say to him,I'm his Dad the

one whose always strong,who never cry's (not to his knowledge

anyway)who always makes things alright and makes him feel secure.

I'd have to lie to him to say things won't get worse and I can't

do that.To not be able to make your child feel how you have

always been able to, is the worst feeling ever and I wouldn't

wish it on anyone.Really dreading the coming weeks for him.

 

I'd like to say a very special Thankyou to Athene for starting a

collection for Harry.I am old fashioned (try to be proud & deal

with my own problems without bothering others)but when

Athene asked my permission to do this ,I could not say no,as my

not accepting would have deprived Harry of all your kindness and

generosity and that would have been so unfair of me as he deserves

all the acts of kindness he can get.

I want to say the biggest thankyou I can for all the contributions

as I know money is very tight for most people,so for you to do this

for Harry is very special and will never be forgotten.

 

I will post as and when I can.I'd love to reply to all of you idividually

as all your messages deserve it,but for now with limited time I'll just

say Your All Stars and your support is greatly appreciated.

 

You all look after yourselves,John

thanks for the update!!

 

Never mind old fashiondness (spelling) you need anything , you just let us know!!

 

Everyone needs support in difficult times and its lovely to know you feel you can confide in us all, its what we are here for.

 

Anthing just ask!!

thanks for the update!!

 

Never mind old fashiondness (spelling) you need anything , you just let us know!!

 

Everyone needs support in difficult times and its lovely to know you feel you can confide in us all, its what we are here for.

 

Anthing just ask!!

 

Thanks for that and the same apply's back from me too !

(not as I'd be much use to anyone at the moment, "but hopefully in the future")

Good to hear some good news there John. I'll be passing by your place poss on sunday so i'll call in, I'm the one who got your seats of you a few years back lol.

I know you'll be strong for harry but if you need to let it out just get on here mate.

the people at the birminghan childrens hospital are top people, our subo's lad pops in there reg for check ups after his kidney op (5years old ). And his mum and dad can't speak highly enough of them so He's in good hands.

AND STOP SAYING THANK YOU TO US ALL lol

graeme

Hey i know i am a new member and all, but i would just like to say well done for staying strong. My heart goes out for your family

good news john, we're all here when you need to talk, and welcome to the club murt.

nice to hear some good news... will be in touch soon. Take care and be strong!

Good to hear some good news there John. I'll be passing by your place poss on sunday so i'll call in, I'm the one who got your seats of you a few years back lol.

I know you'll be strong for harry but if you need to let it out just get on here mate.

the people at the birminghan childrens hospital are top people, our subo's lad pops in there reg for check ups after his kidney op (5years old ). And his mum and dad can't speak highly enough of them so He's in good hands.

AND STOP SAYING THANK YOU TO US ALL lol

graeme

 

Hope you get this before Sunday Graeme as

I'm no longer where you came for the seats.

Would have most likely been out most of day

anyway as Harry having chemo again, then

dropping in on his Grandad.

Cheers for your messages and support mate.

Cant believe I have only just come across this thread. Me and the Mrs have just read each and every post and we are completely choked up by your devastating news. As a dad myself (2girls) I cant even begin to imagine how completely helpless and angry you must be feeling with the world. I know I would be angry anyway. I'm glad you finally had a piece of good news this week. Your Harry sounds like a very brave lad and although this treatment is going to be the toughest time of his life, our kids just find a way of pulling through and usually with a smile! Amazing. I think you are all sooo brave, especially Harry and you will be in our thoughts every single day. Wishing you and your family strength and love from Neil, Lou and the girls x

 

Our children hold our hand for just a short time, but hold our hearts forever x