Ok say what ever you wish about the below links... but please be decent about it.... I cant describe my feelings ... but figured that by posting these at least some of you might read between the lines and get a good idea of what I am going through.....

The below articals are about my brother....

Besides having my back broken within the past 2 years... my life is (cant say on the forum) well enough depression ... see the links.

 

http://www.courant.com/news/local/nb/hc-nebstab0530.artmay31,0,6306562.story?coll=hc-headlines-nb

 

http://www.ctcentral.com/site/news.cfm?newsid=16714830&BRD=1641&PAG=461&dept_id=10110&rfi=6

 

Any questions.. please ask.. dont assume... its a long story.. and I am not saying what he did is right... just that I am in pain.....

I feel for you mate, i hate to think how that poor woman feels too.

Thanks bud. Megan is and was no angel... she invited him in and there is a very long story... which of course the news pappers dont give a darn about... but I wouldnt wish that on anyone..... needless to say... you can see he wasnt in a right state of mind.... and well...... thats it. WTF am I still over here.... I should go back to america... I am getting pi55ed off .... ahhhh..

 

too much medication and drink at the minute... so i guess I should stop typing.

Pretty grim for all concerned ! :shock:

Crickey mate, quite a situation there.

Mental illness is scarey for everyone concerned and amazingly common.

Hope things improve for you - when you're right down things can only get better.

Jesus mate, thats some serious stuff to be dealing with. Keep your self pride and look after yourself. Don't descend into pills and booze. Hope you can get through it all. Dave

You can only live your life not your brothers, his ex or anybody else's. I know you're in pain but your life is yours life focus on that not anothers. You are not responsible for either of them and there is nothing you can do. You have to take care of yourself or things will never feel anything like normal or right again. I cann't say life will become a bed of roses it won't, and recovery from what you are going through will at time be a living hell but you will survive even thought it doesn't feel like it at present.

 

Take care and look after yourself.

So do you want to tell what happened? The first thing I think when reading the papers is what really happened, no matter how bad or one-sided it might look at first.

Hey guys.. dont worry.. i am not doing anything stupid...most of you know i am on meds for pain relief.. and having a few drinks tonight is kinda dumb.. i should know being a x paramedic now.. lol!

oh well..

 

Anyway story is this... my brother about 5 years ago started to get depressed.. megan (who he dated since kids) also was depressed.. and she started to become anorixic... anyway... my brother tryed committing suicide a few times.. seen a few gps... and was just told its depression... they got in a fight... and megans parents insisited on a restraining order.. megan kept calling my brother.. emailing him and meeting up with him... my brothers condition got alot worse.. megan began seeing other blokes and still my brother... .. my brother then tryed 2 very serious attempts of suicide.. near successfull... and had been committed to a hspt... anyway.. that night he wrote a letter to my dad.. saying he was going to a m8s and was gonna be there.. gave tel num etc. ( he had only been out of the hspt a few days ) anyway... he started to drive there.. (pre arranged) when megan rang his cell... he then went to her house.... (long drive) anyway... she opened the door... her roomate left.... (details become sketchy from here) but he stabbed her... (alot) and it continued outside... he then stabbed himself.. cut his throat.. and kept stabbing his chest... police arrived and tazered him 4 times. he was still resisting.. tryed stabbing himself more... he went alot of hspt treatment then carted off to jail immediatly after...

 

theres alot more but not enough time in the day to explain... but you get my idea...she should have left him alone.. he shouldnt have gone there.... if the Fken hspt would have diagnosed him properly the first hundred of times.. he would have recieved the right meds and hopefully it would have never happend... he was a strait A student .... was about to graduate as a teacher... ( he was in his final year) he has had nothing to do in prision so turned to god?? ( sorry dont meant to offend what i am about to say... but i dont believe in god.. ) but anyway.. hence his statement..

 

my brother has never apart from the one arguement with megan.. which he kicked a inside door down... that he lived in... has been in a fight... I have never seen this side of him in my life... and i am left thinking i dont know him... I really dont.

I love him.. I ..........oh bugger.. well anyway that answered the q's

A Brother's Love Is So Strong ,i Know This Because Of My Brother And What He's Been Through,,be There No Matter What ,,blood At The End Of The Day,,good Luck Bud

Christ thats full on. I really don't think people or the medical profession treat depression and the like in the right way. I remember feeling depressed and like I was going crazy many times through lack of sleep or bad times in the Marines. I'm sure the brain and your moods are just like other muscles in your body. If its tired, or hurt it doesn't work properly and all of a sudden people think they are going crazy, which makes it ten times worse because then it gets into a vicious downhill cycle.

Your bro is still your bro mate, he's just lost it with his condition. Family is family no matter what happens or how wrong it is. Have you spoke to him at all since it happened? I guess its up to him and Megan to get over it all and move on. I can't begin to imagine how it must be for you, but keep your chin up. Dave

 

Don't add yourself to the list of casualties Jon. I hope something will sort itself out somehow

I suffer from depression myself matey and its not easy, its a day to day battle as i'm sure you'll know.

 

Times get difficult and you just want to wipe yourself out of existence and its those times when you need friends. I think i say this and it applies to everyone on here.

 

I'm sure there's more people than you and i that deal with depressions so feel free to chat to us about it any time you want matey.

 

All the best,

 

Nick